I don’t think human beings are meant to live like this!I caught myself the other day standing in the kitchen scrolling on my phone while the kettle boiled… then opening another app before I’d even finished looking at the first one. And honestly, I think that tiny moment says quite a lot about modern life now. The mind barely gets a second unoccupied before something rushes in to fill it. A message. Even rest has started becoming strangely performative. I notice this in myself sometimes when I’ve spent too much time online or too much time “doing”. Everything becomes slightly operational. And I don’t think we fully realise how much this affects people now. Not just emotionally, but perceptually. Because when the nervous system is constantly stimulated, rushed or fragmented, life itself starts feeling different. You stop noticing things properly. And then after a while people start building identities around states that were only ever supposed to be temporary. “I’m just a stressed person.” Meanwhile the system hasn’t had a moment of genuine spaciousness in years. I notice versions of this in practice all the time now too. Not just physical tension. People arriving at practice carrying the momentum of modern life straight into the room with them. You can almost feel how difficult it has become for many people to simply arrive somewhere fully. And I understand it because honestly… look at what we’re living inside. Everything now is competing for attention. Every platform wants emotional engagement. Yoga sometimes gets swallowed by this too. People approaching practice like another thing they need to “succeed” at correctly. More flexibility. But traditional yoga was never really trying to turn people into optimisation projects. If anything, it was trying to reduce some of the interference. The sages understood something quite profound really: When attention becomes fragmented, life starts fragmenting too. Not literally, obviously. Everything starts feeling thinner somehow. And because this now feels normal culturally, people rarely question it. They assume they need: Meanwhile they haven’t sat quietly with their own attention for longer than four minutes without reaching for stimulation. Which now I say it out loud sounds slightly terrifying actually. 😂 And this is partly why repetition matters so much in practice. Not because repetition is exciting. But repetition interrupts fragmentation. You return to the same shapes. And slowly the system starts remembering something different. There’s more spaciousness. As my teacher Octavio says: Which always makes me laugh. Because when your attention becomes steadier, you become harder to manipulate. You become more capable of hearing your own life again underneath all the static. That’s a big part of what we’ve been exploring inside FireWoven recently. Not self-improvement. Just becoming more here again. More able to feel ordinary life properly. I wrote more about this properly in this week’s piece: Particularly the strange way nervous system state slowly starts shaping identity without people fully noticing. The point where exhaustion stops feeling temporary and starts sounding like: “This is just who I am now.” Which honestly I think is happening to far more people than we realise. With love, Josie 🔥 Join Me In FireWoven P.S. If practice has drifted a little lately, don’t turn the return into a dramatic self-improvement campaign. Quiet repetition is usually enough. 🔥 |
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